Lets see...

Things are going really well with me and amber, thou i do have to attend a funeral on Wed for a really close family friend.. that's kinda sad.

SAFF and the 501st are being there usual selves and i've tried keeping out a lot of the politics that just seem to be rampant, ahhh politics. 

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You scored as Yomiko Readman Kudos. You're Yomiko Readman from R.O.D. You are a nerd when it comes to books. You like reading and that can sometimes get in the way of keeping yourself well-kept. If you really want something, that's all you can focus on. Yomiko Readman 88% Yukino Miyazawa 75% Tohru Honda 75% Kenshin Himura 63% Naruto Uzamaki 50% Vash the Stampede 38% Edward Elric 38% Keitaro Urashima 38%

I am Missing Amber...... a lot, knowing she is two hours away is like being teased with something you really want.

*laughs* wow... how did this all happen so fast, I wasn't.... Not in a million years looking for someone to be in my life, I was happy being myself, planing on going to usa / japan. Yet by Sunday night / Monday what was a friendship / fun turned in to something else, something wonderful.

Sure she's very very different to what tracey is, and yes i am worried about a few things. But i am determined to be a good boy, not let my head get in the way and actually enjoy the moments with her.

Well i have the house to myself for the next three days!!! WooT

thou last night was a little boring, no sounds in the house, no one to snuggle up to unless you include my laptop.... which i'm not sure is healthy *laughs*

Thou i am planning on going to Renmark on the weekend of the 15th in august. Recenter myself :)

The ACG ball is rapidly approaching... *laughs* i'm looking forward to it, but i did work out that between now and September i am busy 6 weekends out of 8.

So... There you go

Well I was stumbling around the other day and i came across some things that tugged some chords in my head...

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again

You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above

[Chorus:]
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree

Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you

[Chorus]
[Chorus]

Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you

[Chorus]

That's the first one... the second one is this

Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen listen

Listen to each drop of rain (listen listen)
Aaah
Whispering secrets in vain (listen listen)
Aaah
Frantically searching for someone to hear
Their story before they hit ground
Please don't let go
Can't we stay for a while?
It's just to hard to say goodbye
Listen to the rain

Aa...ah
Listen listen listen listen listen listen to the rain
Weeping
Oo...ooh oooh ooh oo...ooh
Oo...ooh oooh oh oh

Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen

I stand alone in the storm (listen listen)
Suddenly sweet words take hold
(Listen listen)
Hurry they say for you haven't much time
Open your eyes to the love around you
You may feel you're alone
But I'm here still with you
You can do what you dream
Just remember to listen to the rain

oo...ooh oh oh oh oh
ooh ooh oh oh oooh
Listen

Both lyrics come from a rarely heard and unknown Evanescence songs.... I hadn't even heard of them until i stumbled across a site with all there early work.

Now... scary as this may seem it kind of reflects my moods... in fact i took my first foray into writing the other day and wrote something kinda odd and a little scary knowing that it came from inside my head.

Two months pass by and it's getting cold
I know I'm not lost
I am just alone
But I won't cry
I won't give up
I can't go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are

This mean i'm gonna quit and take up a job writing poems / lyrics... LoL hell no :P

But i'm seriously considering a complete change of life / employment / where i live... It's like i'm being called to do something else, the problem is i'm not entirely sure what.

Back to the present and the current, i'm looking forward to Kidsflix this weekend, my clones First Official Outing :) i am beyond psyced. My New glasses are hurting my eyes, i am guessing that it's because my brain needs to get used to them.

I'm wanting to go and see the Dark Knight, prolly wont get a chance until after i've been paid in 12 days time. Not that money's an issue i just need to ballance things. I'm spending too much on crap and need to get a hold of my spending to make it to DC next year.

On the work front, i enjoy my job and I'm finding it challenging, the problem is it's the same shit day in and day out, it has been for the past 14 years. It's why a part of me is considering doing something completely radical, thou i honestly feel that i should do that after DragonCon / Japan.

Anyways... back to work

Well i don't think that my secret project will be finished by Avcon, so it looks like i'm going to my fall back position.

I'm organising Darth Hunky, tk1571 myself and maybe a few others to attend AVCon in Armor. So... Clone Trooper tc1259 will be in attendence somehow :P

Were pulling it all from the Games and maybe a little from the Clone Wars Anime's... i think rui said something about getting some material together.

Admittedly i would almost be interested in doing something ghost in the shell *laughs*

Well I'm happy about today, the mask mold is well on it's way... Costume parts are coming in and things are moving along on that front really well.

Admittedly I'm in a better mood today, almost like a weight has been lifted, i'm probably going to have a number of moments but at this second i'm good.

I think i'm going to try and learn Japanese... I think i need to *grins*

I was sitting there the other night thinking about what Aurors would wear in combat, i imagine it would be some kind of leather armor of some description that's been enchanted.

I've also been thinking about completing the Stargate Costume i would like to do for myself. Alas it would be hard to get a weapon like the p90 Replica, but i've been speaking to a few people and i think i might be able to pull it off.

Who knows...

On the Star Wars Front, i'm still arranging to get my Revan, but if i'm sucessful in the next few weeks i might start looking at an Arc Trooper again.

Just a couple of more pictures from my camera on the weekend and one taken from Snapes camera.

Admittedly the more i look at my costume the more i think i need a jumper.... *mutters to self and wonders off to find a nice one*

I've popped to of my favorites under the cut


I'm pretty sure once more photo's are available we will pop them up.

Well i had a great long weekend,

We did a photo shoot for Billywigs which is the Australian Harry Potter Alliance on the grounds of Adelaide university.

Ali was a laugh... i don't think I've ever laughed so much in my life.

Anyways here is my fav pic so far, there are so much more coming thou.